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The circle dance of personal identity

Reading | Philosophy

Ola Nilsson, MA | 2025-02-14

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Philosopher Ola Nilsson is back with another one of his mind-boggling, and yet irresistibly compelling, thought experiments. This time he shows, with surprisingly few words, how one universal mind can appear to be many, such as you and I, simply because of time and will. Buckle up for this amazing ride!

Introduction

This essay is a standalone continuation of my previous essay, Meta-Survival: On the Incoherence of Localized, Countable Subjectivity. This time, I aim to clarify what the perceived dissociation between us consists of and to answer the question of why you are not me. I may fail in this task, but by the end of my investigation, I will have deduced a new question on this theme. This question may at first glance seem trivial, but as we will see, its answer seems to hold the key to why we are dissociated from one another.

 

The circle dance

If you found yourself in a circle with three other people, identical to you in every way, in an otherwise empty universe, which of these individuals’ perspectives would be yours? In this scenario, my position is that there would only be one first-person perspective, one personal mind—and it is yours. You constitute all these ‘four’ persons. How do I justify this claim? Simply because in this scenario, there is nothing that differentiates you from the others; you are all the same. If this thought sounds bizarre, I recommend you read my previous essay.

Now, the following scenario unfolds in the circle (see Figure 1): You, denoted as person A, raise your right hand (i.e., persons A, E, I, and M raise their right hands in sync). Then you, now denoted as person B, raise your left hand (i.e., persons B, F, J, and N raise their left hand in sync). Next, you, now denoted as person C, start walking to the left (i.e., persons C, G, K, and O start walking to the left, in sync). What I’ve described now is your performing a kind of dance. No dissociation has yet occurred; you’re just doing a dance.

In the critical moment of the final dance step, however, imagine that you, now denoted as person D, raise your right hand while observing that the other three (persons H, L, and P) are raising their left hands. This breaks the symmetry, and you all now have, by necessity, different perspectives. Dissociation has occurred. You are now one of four unique, distinct individuals.

But now notice that the exact same kind of dissociation has already occurred among the four situations shown in A, B, C, and D (or, if you prefer, among E, J, O, and D, etc.) as when you raised your right hand instead of your left. What distinguishes A, B, C, and D is time. What distinguishes D, H, L, and P is simply that they are different persons. For this statement to make sense, we need to discuss what time is.

 

Time and time loops

Visualize a marble-run in which a marble moves around in circles. There is nothing more in the world than this system: the marble-run and the marble. Now imagine that the marble-run is ‘magical’ in the sense that, when the marble completes one round, it and the marble-run are restored precisely to their original states, so the marble keeps on going round and round.

Let’s now enter the scene in person and observe the marble going around the marble-run ten times—that is, you watch the marble go around ten times. You are now a witness: you counted. However, note that you are not restored to your initial state after each marble round. You are necessarily in different states as you count the marble’s rounds. This way, it’s perfectly reasonable to think of yourself, the marble, and the marble-run as one system in which time has moved forward. Remember that you counted ten rounds, and this will take some time. In this system, the marble-run and marble will necessarily be affected by your presence. You will, for example, emit heat and exert a gravitational influence on the entire system while you count, which means that the marble run system cannot be perfectly restored after each round as when you were not present.

If we remove you from the system, leaving only the marble-run and the marble, we can ask ourselves what it means that the marble has done ten rounds, given that the system is restored exactly to its original state after each round. I argue that it doesn’t mean anything to claim that the marble has done ten rounds, any more than to claim that the marble has done one round or a billion rounds. This is because there is nothing in the world that can tell these rounds apart.

An easier way to look at this is to imagine yourself in a situation where you are on your way home, but in the middle of the street, an evil demon is waiting for you and tricks you into a loop. He makes you do the walk a hundred times but restores your state each time in the same way as described for the marble-run. After the hundredth time, he lets you through, and you reach your home. Do you think your situation and world would be any different if the demon hadn’t played this trick on you? If so, you have some explaining to do.

It is not time that changes the system; instead, it is the change of the system that gives rise to what we perceive as time. If the system is perfectly restored to its initial condition after each round, no ‘before’ would exist, because time is then literally restored. And if we restore time, we can’t really talk about a time before the restoration of time. It would be a logical monstrosity to do that.

Does the statement above mean that I am defending logical positivism, the notion that statements are meaningful only if they can be empirically verified or are analytically true? Definitely not. What I’m saying is just that the claim that the described event has occurred ten or a hundred times is neither meaningless nor meaningful. The question lacks relevance in this context. Remember that we literally have restored time after each round, and after each of your attempts to get home!  Or do you think you can reset time in time? If so, you end up in an infinite regress. Note that I’m not claiming that time is an illusion or that time doesn’t exist; I’m simply stating that time and change are the same thing.

As shown above, time appears and presents itself differently depending on the instantiated system. This means that the very same circle dance described earlier could be played out in an identical system (see Figure 2), but this will never take place in a different time, because it is the very same time that arises in this system.

But what about the geographic location then: isn’t that different? This question, too, seems to lack relevance. If we accept that A, E, I, and M are the very same person as stated before, nothing in the world would be different if it were instead A, E2, I2, and M we found in the first ring.

Am I contradicting myself now, since I spoke earlier of how you inevitably affected the marble-run with your presence? Shouldn’t these two systems (the rings in Figures 1 and 2) affect each other in the very same way? Yes, if we believe in spacetime and if they were close. But we can resolve this problem by placing these ‘two’ systems so far away from each other that their respective light cones are inaccessible from each other, and the problem is solved.

 

Dissociation

If time and change are the same thing, it means that A, B, C, and D on the one hand, and D, H, L, and P on the other, are dissociated under exactly the same conditions. This, in turn, means that A represents a certain person, B represents another person, G represents a third person, and so on. Persons B and C are not the same person, for the same reason that D and H aren’t. Yes, there may be a ‘memory connection’ from D back ‘in time’ to C, B, and A, but this doesn’t mean that A, B, C, and D are the same person. I would argue that D is more dissociated from A than H, since A to D involves more steps of change compared to D to H.

Does this knowledge provide us with new insight into fission cases where one person splits into several persons, like in the case with D, H, L, and P? Remember that the question “Which of D, H, L, or P is actually you?” bears the same kind of answer as the question “Which of A, B, C, or D is actually you?” If we can answer one of these questions, we have answered the other question as well.

Which of D, H, L, and P is you is a question about personal identity, so let’s explore that further. As explained above, personal identity shouldn’t be viewed as a transitive relation and something unique that you carry throughout your life. Instead, we consist of myriads of identities through life. We can liken these identities to different ‘rooms’ that we can enter. Let us assume that person D claims that she is person D and wants to know why she is not person H. Why does she have this unique person D perspective? We understand the question. We also understand that C is defined by a unique room containing a unique identity that asks this question. It could not have been in any other way in this scenario, because if it were, the question would not have been asked by C.

If C so desires, there is nothing preventing C from transforming into another room, for example, H’s room. C then becomes H and, instead of asking questions about her existence, she will be doing something else. Several different rooms will need to be passed through by C to transform into H, but there is no reason to believe that C, in this continuous chain towards H’s room, would feel that she ceased to be herself, even when she enters H’s room and then becomes H. The question of which of D, H, L, or P you are is therefore a non-question, you are or were them all, in the same way that you are or were A, B, C, and D.  Yet you are, at the same time, divided into myriads of rooms—or, if you like, identities.

 

Conclusion

In this essay, I argue that time is change, and that change inexorably leads to dissociation. Can the concept of dissociation be explained in further terms? Dissociation arose when you chose to lift your right hand instead of your left, just as when H, L, and P chose not to do so. Similarly, dissociation occurred at every moment of the dance for A, B, C, and D. Wasn’t it you who performed the dance with intent? And wasn’t it you who chose to lift your right hand?

If you can answer the question of why ‘you’ chose to lift your right hand at that critical moment at the end of the circle dance, then you have also answered why we are dissociated from each other. Or perhaps we should blame H, L, and P, who didn’t raise their right hands at the critical moment. Maybe it was something else that guided your or their movements? Regardless, dissociation seems to inevitably follow the same path as Will, whether it is your will, my will, or someone else’s Will.

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